healed.. with tired eyes

the past 8 hours have been an agony.

Lord,
i re-considering my many decisions for the coming year. even those for the next month.
if i stick to these decisions.. i know that the days of disappointment, misunderstanding, 'torture', inadequacy are back to haunt once again.
well well, of course You are always in control. how You manage even to use the wrongdoings of man to accomplish Your ultimate purpose n will simply tell much abt Your Sovereignty.
If even the grass of the fields and the birds of the air are well taken care of, much more me, Your creation, created in Your image. therefore, i'm to not worry.
the month of dec holds many challenges.
deep within, my desires will surely rage.
show me, teach me, guide me.
and i will take my stand to OBEY.
simply to TRUST n OBEY.
empower me for You work each day.
i love You Lord.
may my love be not merely cheap talk, but rather, may this love pay the price all in faith, hope n love.